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12.30.2011

Drawing Jack Kerouac, the healing of an owl tattoo (that's missing hyphens on the words wise guy".) Have more of a cold than I'm allowing affect.

Feeling good and bummed inside.  Good because i've patched up some wounds-o-the-heart, and it
feels nice to be focused and true.  Good because i'm surviving (so far!), the workload i've placed on
myself.  The outcome is worth the time and energy, but it's a lot - not bitchin, just gets tiring is all ...still, the $$$ is worth it.

New Year's Resolutions.  I have 3, and they're gunna be hard to complete:

1) Charlie the Bee (stop-train focus)

2) Zodiac Dragons (ongoing)

3) Shit or get off the tattoo artist pot.

#1 is a necessity, really.  Stoopid NOT to have it finished.  Has potential to be commercially successful. May issue PREVIEWS and SAMPLES via facebook - make sure there's a DIGI copy for nooks and kindles. Who to do the audio?  Hmmm...

#2 is a work in progress.  I have the sept/oct slot at TISANE this year, or oct/nov, i forget - but....for
the show I'm going to draw/paint ALL the signs of the zodiac, with dragon(s) infused throughout.  Looking forward to that - will just kinda go free.  Lady Yellow is helping me with the thematics.  :)

#3...Fuck.  Fuckety fuck fuuuuuuuuck.  Ahh, better.  NO CHANCE. to say i'm frustrated on this matter is an understatement.  Feel black-listed, like i pushed too hard, and paid handsomely.  Still do, and will continue to draw everyday...with or without tattooing.  I feel a lack of direction and kind-of an 'incomplete circle' at play so far as this entire subject matter is concerned. One truth is i love tattoos.  Having them.  They feel right.

In talking with a buddy awhile back, he observed that i'm 'gleaming' from tattoo art, and applying it back to my own sense of things.  ...thought that was an interesting thought.  In general, i kind of go with the tides in the arts - tattooing and the dream or desire or unobtainable fantasy or destined profession; whatever; is one element.  ...that i continue to be drawn right-back-into.

All-in-all, i'm fighting off the neg vibes, putting stock and faith into responsibility and family, while keeping the antenna up and the right hand moving.  ...playing piano and singing every now and then helps, too.

"Oh I'm a lucky man, to count on both hands the ones i love..."

2011 has been a good year for 'the rabbit'.  2012 brings 'the dragon', the emperor.  Need to investigate, and LIVE, the totem further.

CHI.